Productivity!

So I feel very productive today. I paid more attention in both my classes today! Still not 100% but my attention span has never been 3 hours so I do my best. Also I got all my homework done for tomorrow before 10:30! This is a first in a while. I am going to try and keep this up tomorrow and get some of my cataloging homework done and not wait until Thursday night. The end of this week is going to be crazy so I might as well try to get ahead. I am going to try and work on my resume right now before bed since I'm going to talk to career services on Thursday about a possible job! We'll see what she has to say about it. Also going to try and read the first couple of chapters of the Bell Jar for Thursday.
This weekend went well. The Twilight party at work was awesome. That evening was a great girls night with Serv and Funmbs and Saturday, minus losing the football game was great. It was so nice to finally have people come over and visit. Watching the game was great fun and the Wii playing after (until the second 2 am) was some of the most fun I've had in months, although I did keep have this nagging feeling that something was missing and wanting to see why Chris wasn't there.
It seems that when I stop being busy is when I dwell on things and break down. Every so often I get this feeling like there's a whole in my torso and just want to curl up and hold myself together, a total Bella Swan feeling. I also keep wanting to call him and make sure he's okay since I know I'm not and I can't imagine he is, but I haven't, and I'm not going to. He asked for space to figure out his life, I'm doing the best I can to give him that. I really don't know what else to do. I've made it through telling people since Thursday without breaking down in front of them, so hopefully it will keep getting better with time. Amira told me to remember that it's not the end of the world and I just have to keep telling myself that. I have way too much other stuff going on to be sad all the time. It's just hard since he's not mad at me and it wasn't anything that I did or said, makes me feel like there's nothing I could have done or can do. I just need to quit thinking about it, but I can't figure out how.
Well time for my resume and Plath.

Currently Reading: Going Bovine and The Bell Jar